Showing posts with label #hate. Show all posts
Showing posts with label #hate. Show all posts

Wednesday, March 03, 2021

IWSG March In With Sunshine!

 

Though we have had some wind, March has not come in with a "roar" as it does sometimes. We are so lucky right now that we have SUN for the next 7 or 8 days! After so many cloudy/snowy/rainy days, the relief is as deep as my need for Vit D (which I do take in supplement form but sun is so much more fun).

IWSG is what keeps me writing on the internet these days, as I am in revision mode on a WIP. 

Our Twitter Handle is @theIWSG and hashtag is #IWSG

Please go visit our wonderful co-hosts this month and thank them for helping out.

                                    Sarah - The Faux Fountain Pen, Jacqui Murray, Chemist Ken, 

Victoria Marie Lees, Natalie Aguirre, JQ Rose!

I wanted to share a recent epiphany with you. For years I have fought with myself, blamed myself, felt guilty, and generally negative about a certain aspect of writing. This aspect, I felt, meant I wasn't a "real" writer. So, I have kept it to myself and struggled with it. I realized this past Sunday, in a "family meeting" my son asked to have to talk about things together, that I finally had a safe place to discuss this aspect of writing that I have so struggled with. I said the words out loud, over and over and acknowledged them, and gave voice to them, and owned them, and wow, the feeling was overwhelming and positive, like I no longer drowned in the negative, but had found a way to burst the surface and breath clean, life-giving air. Here are the words:

I hate to go and write. I hate to make myself go and write. I hate the thought of having to go and write. I literally HATE that part of writing. 

Once I breathed this into the air a strange uplifting feeling came and I smiled, I laughed (at myself) and realized I had found a small freedom that now allows me to go ahead and hate making myself write, which in turn allows me to do just that. Make myself write, without guilt, without shame or blame.  You see, once I'm here in front of my screen and reading and writing and putting the pieces of the puzzle that is my wip in place, I LOVE writing. I love being here. I love the storytelling.

I am not a "wordsmith." I am not someone who loves everything having to do with writing. And I don't have to be. I just have to be the writer I am. I am a storyteller and that is the kind of writer I love to be. Do you love every aspect of writing, if you write?

Happy Spring Everyone.