Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Insomnia and Me



Insomnia, when she comes to visit, can be disrupting and yet productive, actually. I have a love/hate relationship with Insomnia. I don’t quite think of her as a friend, yet she and I have been on intimate terms lately. On the one hand I dislike her intensely because I’m afraid she will ruin the day to come. However, if I get up and write, even if I feel like you know what, she isn’t such bad company and I often come away with, if not a peppy feeling of accomplishment, at least I feel I haven’t wasted my early morning with her or bemoan the coming day.
If I’ve already spent three or four hours writing before the sun has risen I can justify a nap in the afternoon, if I even need one. Lately I’ve found myself so ginned up on the work I’ve accomplished that I go until about nine the night after Insomnia’s visit. I don’t need a nap because I feel somehow energized from not having wasted time trying to sleep when there was no way my little trickster friend was going to let me. All in all when I can work, Insomnia and I get along all right. I’m glad she doesn’t feel it necessary to pay a visit every night but I do hope this trend we’ve created continues, because I’d really hate to have this surprisingly productive relationship come to an end. I think it’s “working” for both of us!
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7 comments:

  1. I love writing at night, although I usually stay up late to do it rather than getting up when I've had a visit from Insomnia (she's a busy woman).

    There is something about the quiet, about the stillness, that allows ideas to flow. I too don't mind so much feeling like a zombie the next day when I've had a productive night.

    A-Z @ Elizabeth Twist

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  2. I don't believe I've ever had a bout with insomnia (knock on wood), but my wife struggles with it constantly (which means I do too). :)

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  3. i know what you mean.. sometimes something that is considered a negative can actually be a plus... depends on how you view it. nice post.

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    1. Yep. And I really like finding those positives!

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  4. Your very personal relationship with insomnia held me speelbound. How clever of you to use the time writing instead of lying inert with your mind buzzing. I never do that. I lie with my eyes closed tightly, willing my thoughts away--thoughts that take me to tasks left undone, which I'll never accomplish the next day.

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    1. I've learned the hard way Francene! I used to do that too. Not anymore!

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  5. I have a very specific window I need to fall asleep in. If I miss it then I'll almost be guaranteed to be wide awake until 4 am.

    I don't think there's ever been a time I haven't been tired between 5 am and 7 am--which stinks since those are the hours my husband tends to wake up during.

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