As you can see is the day for posting in the Insure Writer's Support Group. Please feel free to check out the other blogs participating, and don't forget to thank the co-hosts C. Lee McKenzie, Tracy Jo, Melanie Schulz, and LG Keltner!
Today I write about having my dedication tested. Yes, I made goals and figured out how much I need to do each day to achieve those goals, and I committed to a game plan for June.
Now, throw in an emergency appendectomy last Tuesday (the ER was a whole twelve hour saga in itself). We were on our way back from a wonderful vacation with our kids and our daughter’s soon to be in-laws in Ohio (a thirteen hour drive on a good day), when, about six hours from home complete and utter pain hit like a storm and never let up. So glad it waited till the vacation was over! Grrrr.
|Least gross image of normal appendix.|
I’m finding, as I sit here on my couch, or lay in my bed, or walk slowly around my house, that my body is not the problem as far as taking it easy goes. My body is doing well letting me know my limits and what it will not tolerate. It’s my head. It’s my eyes roaming over all the things I “need to get done” that have been put aside, first for vacation (nine days) then for operation (three days) and now for healing (six weeks!!!!!!!!!!). Yes, of course I know I need to heal. Yes I know that this too shall pass and if I don’t allow my body the time it needs I will regret it in the most horrible manner. Just tell this to my head. Please, tell my head not to stress. I don’t need to cry and worry. I don’t need to be super human right now. I need to heed the calm, listen to the wise voice saying it’s okay to not work right now. I need to banish Demon Guilt sitting on my shoulder telling me not to be a wimp. Get a grip. Buck up. Just thinking of fighting with him is tiring my already tired self.
So, I’ve decided that I will write this blog post and arrange a new schedule for June. Tomorrow my post will go live and I will visit others from the IWSG and derive inspiration. I will commit to doing one thing each day until I can do two. Then I will commit to doing three things until I can do four. In this way I hope to keep Demon Guilt at bay while also allowing my stress level to stay even and calm. Dedication to my vocation is only topped by dedication to my healthy self, as it should be. I’m thinking that by listening and dedicating myself to healing, by the time July comes around I’ll be letting you know what I was able to accomplish this month. Wish me luck.
Hope you feel better. From the looks of it, I see you're handling things quite well. Sharing these things is one way of facing it. You're brave enough to do that. And devising a new schedule will also do wonders. Take care. Sending you virtual *HUGS*! Oh, and thanks for visiting my blog. All the best!ReplyDelete
I'm sorry you had to go through that! Let your body heal.ReplyDelete
One thing a day sounds like a good goal. Get others to help around the house. And keep talking to your head.
Focusing on one task at a time, especially after a serious illness, is such a great way of managing recovery. Love your blog and will be back. New follower as of today.ReplyDelete
Oh my goodness, I'm sorry this happened to you! You are so right to dedicate yourself to your healing. Take care and feel better soon.ReplyDelete
I like your plan. Take it easy; your body needs rest even if your mind doesn't.ReplyDelete
Sounds like a doable plan. Don't beat yourself up if you have to start with one thing every other day. Take care and get well.ReplyDelete
Wow, that's a pretty hefty surgery. Glad you got to the hospital in time...and glad you got to enjoy your vacation first!ReplyDelete
If you keep your mind busy, it will bug you with guilt trips less. Don't think on what you can't do, but try to focus on things you can do. Breathe deeply, seriously. It helps a lot when one feels we'll go nuts. That's what I'm doing. I know it is not easy but it's possible. Dragon Hugs!ReplyDelete
And as you begin to heal from that ordeal, you must build up to a pace that truly suits you. Indeed, your health and well being are the priority. The rest shall fall into place at a speed conducive to you.
In peace and goodwill,
The most important thing is heal. I do like your plan though. Mostly because I have the same one. My goal is to drop by each post even if it takes days. And it has. :-)ReplyDelete
Anna from Shout with Emaginette
Oh, wow, Lisa... so sorry to hear about your surgery.... Sending lots of healing thoughts for you.ReplyDelete
I know exactly how you feel right now. Last August I was hit by a cyclist. I was left with my head split open and a broken wrist. It took almost three months to heal from the concussion and broken wrist. I went crazy.... Plus I had a South American trip planned for the end of October. I was sweating it out big time to see if would be able to go, it was already paid for and I had no insurance. Thankfully it worked out. But I did EVERYTHING the doctors and therapist told me to do. Keep patient and rest. The body does need time to heal.
Oh Lisa - what a pain ... and I feel for you - enforced rest is not required is it .. and then the suddenness of the op - glad it was after your holiday .. Michael gives good advice - essential, there's no point in rushing .. your body will make you suffer anon .. take it easy .. and as you say one thing at a time ..ReplyDelete
Sorry to hear this news .. take care and hugs ... Hilary
i hope you are healing nicely and pain free! what torture to have that long drive then have to go into the hospital! i guess it's good that while you heal, you should have more time to write, right? hoping for a speedy recovery!ReplyDelete
(and i live in ohio and both my neighbors' kids are engaged... guess it's that time of year!)