As you can see is the day for posting in the Insure Writer's Support Group. Please feel free to check out the other blogs participating, and don't forget to thank the co-hosts C. Lee McKenzie, Tracy Jo, Melanie Schulz, and LG Keltner!
Today I write about having my dedication tested. Yes, I made goals and figured out how much I need to do each day to achieve those goals, and I committed to a game plan for June.
Now, throw in an emergency appendectomy last Tuesday (the ER was a whole twelve hour saga in itself). We were on our way back from a wonderful vacation with our kids and our daughter’s soon to be in-laws in Ohio (a thirteen hour drive on a good day), when, about six hours from home complete and utter pain hit like a storm and never let up. So glad it waited till the vacation was over! Grrrr.
|Least gross image of normal appendix.|
I’m finding, as I sit here on my couch, or lay in my bed, or walk slowly around my house, that my body is not the problem as far as taking it easy goes. My body is doing well letting me know my limits and what it will not tolerate. It’s my head. It’s my eyes roaming over all the things I “need to get done” that have been put aside, first for vacation (nine days) then for operation (three days) and now for healing (six weeks!!!!!!!!!!). Yes, of course I know I need to heal. Yes I know that this too shall pass and if I don’t allow my body the time it needs I will regret it in the most horrible manner. Just tell this to my head. Please, tell my head not to stress. I don’t need to cry and worry. I don’t need to be super human right now. I need to heed the calm, listen to the wise voice saying it’s okay to not work right now. I need to banish Demon Guilt sitting on my shoulder telling me not to be a wimp. Get a grip. Buck up. Just thinking of fighting with him is tiring my already tired self.
So, I’ve decided that I will write this blog post and arrange a new schedule for June. Tomorrow my post will go live and I will visit others from the IWSG and derive inspiration. I will commit to doing one thing each day until I can do two. Then I will commit to doing three things until I can do four. In this way I hope to keep Demon Guilt at bay while also allowing my stress level to stay even and calm. Dedication to my vocation is only topped by dedication to my healthy self, as it should be. I’m thinking that by listening and dedicating myself to healing, by the time July comes around I’ll be letting you know what I was able to accomplish this month. Wish me luck.