Thursday, April 07, 2022

Saddest April Ever and IWSG

 


I missed yesterday because we had to let go of our little furry bundle of love, Boney, and I couldn't handle anything. The loss is overwhelming. The grief is there, then gone, then back again. No way to control it. No way to make sense of it. No clarity. Just empty space. A hole. My eyes hurt. My heart is so broken I don't know how to fix it yet. I "know" time will help. But right now nothing does. I try to tell myself that people in Ukraine have it sooooo much worse than I do. But I relate to their grief and loss even more than I did before. My pain is real. Not to be diminished by others also in pain. This is what I tell myself. Nothing helps. I took off work this morning but will go back this afternoon. I will be brave. I will do what I must. I will not be able to not think of Boney, so I will let the tears come as they will and do the best that I can.

Bonaparte (Boney) May 15, 2012 - April 6, 2022

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9 comments:

  1. Very sorry, Lisa! Boney wasn't a pet - Boney was family, and it hurts to lose family.

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  2. I'm so sorry. That is terrible. It's okay to cry though. If I think too hard on Rocko's last day, I start to tear up, and she passed five years ago.

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  3. Hugs Lisa. My brother died in October (many years ago) and then my dog died that January. I cried so much over both, but the whole time I cried over my dog, I kept telling myself that she was just a dog. But the thing is, she wasn't just a dog. She'd been my buddy and support during some of the hardest moments of my life and I missed her.

    And you're not mourning for your loss doesn't save a soul in the Ukraine. But you're right, understanding loss makes their loss easier to sympathize with.

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  4. I'm so sorry for your loss, Lisa.
    Take care.

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  5. Lisa, I am so sorry for your loss. A pet is a member of the family and that's what you've lost. Grief as long as you need. As you say, time helps heal. Hugs.

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  6. Oh, Lisa! My heart goes out to you. Loosing a beloved pet like Boney is heart-wrenching. I lost my beloved MacBeath in 1984, and I still miss him. We're lucky we shared their lives, even if it hurts so bad when they leave us. Sending you a big hug and heart-felt sympathy!

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  7. I'm so sorry for your loss, Lisa. My thoughts are with you.

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  8. I'm so sorry for your loss. Dogs are more than just animals; they're a precious part of our families. They celebrate with us when we're happy and comfort us when we're heartbroken. My dog, Marley, stayed by my side when I went through my second miscarriage. She was so concerned about me and made me feel loved. Though they're only with us for a brief part of our lives, dogs like Boney will always hold a special place in our hearts.

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